Well. I am not being very happy. I am ok in the morning and then getting worse as the day goes on. I don’t know why either. Nothing is really wrong. I have been doing well in my class. I got a 94% on the last test I took on Monday.

I think I found a grad school in Seattle. It is called Argosy University… they have a Psy. D program in clinical psychology. Five years in Seattle would be cool I think. I am still going to look for more school of coarse.

I’ve been playing a lot of UO lately. Last week I got a White Wrym and an Icemare. I just have to wait to get them “bonded” which should be done by Monday. Once that happens I think I will be going on a killing spree and murder me some dragons.

God, I feel just blah. My meds are kinda helping but I don’t know. Signs of depression that I have: Sadness, agitation, lack of good sleep, low sex drive. I just feel icky in the afternoons and evenings. I’m just irritated and stuff. I don’t sleep all that good sometimes. I sweet in the night and I would wake up with me soaking wet. I don’t even feel like masturbating lately. I got some really hot porn lately, but not much is happening with the level of horniness.

I wonder if Erin is back in town. I should call her, but I don’t know if I want to. I think I will call her sometime next week. I thought she would have called me when she got back, if she is back now. She said she would be home by July 1st.

I still haven’t found a job. I need to go to the gas station to see if they looked at my application. If not I will have to go through another weekend of job hunting. I’m sick of job hunting. I just don’t feel like leaving my house for anything but school right now. I don’t want to go out to do things with people. I felt ok when Andrew was here. It’s ok when Mike comes over and plays UO and stuff with me. But other than that I just feel like being alone. But I’m lonely .

I had to go shopping yesterday for shorts and stuff. I got 3 pairs of shorts and two shirts and a belt. I got two pairs of shorts that are 34 waist. My waist is only 32 inches and so I usually wear 33’s. But if I keep gaining weight every year then I would need the 34’s in a year or two. Even if I don’t I just use a belt. I should exercise. But look a few paragraphs up…

For the record… I’m not that wonderful

Off the record… I should go to bed for a long time

For the record… this isn’t a suicide threat.

Off the record… I just want to stay in bed and just lay there.