I spent my days off playing UO and just being the lazy self. I would read at work. I went to mikes house on Thursday night and we drank and played UO. Friday I started getting depressed… I mean really depressed. Today I still was, but started to get better. I actually had something good to eat which seemed to help a little.

I met this girl named Brandi online like on Monday or something. We talked on the phone a few times, and then we arranged to get together on Friday. We were going to go see a movie and what not. But she didn’t have time since it turned out to have a meeting. I didn’t know if it was a date or not. I wish it would have been a date, but I don’t know if I want to date. Brandi seems like a good person to be friends with. But what ever. Work, school, GRE and stuff = no time. + girls = failure at school and GRE.

On the topic of girls… I have been downloading a lot of porn this past week. Porn does not always = masturbation. In fact I think this past week I’ve done it twice, once was because it had been over a week and the second was due to factors that were beyond my control… you know being horny… but since I feel depressed my sex drive doesn’t want to kick in correctly. Either it is too much or too little.

So right now I am watching Silence of the Lambs. This movie is great. It totally deserves all the awards it won. I was going to watch “Monster” but I was watching Law and Order instead. I love that show. Then I flipped to a new channel and saw this movie.

There is this guy at my work who I really don’t like. I’m glad he’s leaving on Tuesday. He’s such an arrogant asshole for working at a gas station.

My boss wants to promote me to weekend paper work guy. He has to check to make sure that I could be able to do it even though I haven’t bee there 90 days. My job is so goddamn boring. All I do is read and my shift duties. I have customers, but they take like 20 seconds each.

Well, I’m going to finish watching this movie.

For the record… I’m kinda depressed

Off the record… It is more depressed that usual.

For the record… Silence of the Lambs is a great movie

Off the record… I can’t wait until I do something with psychology