I’ve been pretty eh lately. I'm really stressed out with school and what not. I have a test today in like 3 hours or so and then I have the GRE on Monday at 8:00am. Neither test I am truly ready for. I studied last night with Jordana for a few hours. It seemed rather helpful. We’ll see when I get my grade back huh?

I'm tired of school so much. I had to turn in my essay on Monday. I think I did well on it, but then again my teacher is a dumb fuck who doesn’t give instruction. I need to do better than what I am doing in my classes, but it is hard because I just am tired of school. I'm tired of the area I live in. I'm tired of not having good friends. All these things contribute to my lack of motivation in school. Grrrrr…

The other night I went to Mike’s house. We played UO. At some point during the night I died… the majority of my armor and jewelry. THAT IS SO FUCKED UP. WHAT’S THE POINT OF INSURANCE IF I STILL LOSE EVERYTHING? Now I must spend like 30 hours trying to get the stuff so I can get new armor.

Akasha asked if she could do anything… She could give me some diamond shards and a green runic sewing kit so I can remake my armor. (i won't tell if i see them in my bank). But I don’t think she can do that. She’s a nice person who talks to me. She makes playing UO more fun. Cole is a good guy too. I play UO because I don’t have many friends in real life. It’s rather pathetic… UO is fun, but I want real friends.

I'm almost off my medication now… I have to start taking 10mgs for a few days then I'm done. I don’t know how this will turn out… But I guess you’ll never know until it happens. Some things aren’t making it easy though…

Shiloh and I had a conversation the other day… She said I shouldn’t wish people dead, and I asked her why. I proceed to tell her that I am indifferent to people dying. It sounds bad, but it’s true. I have had people who I knew die and I just couldn’t understand why people were sad about it. Granted they were people I didn’t like… One person at graduation died the night before. And everyone was sad, and I just didn’t care. I really didn’t like the person. I think it is bullshit for people to be angry at people who don’t care about the person who dies. Someone needs to explain this to me. As I see it, if someone is an ass to me then dies, how and why should I be sad? This feeling and mental state goes for “9-11”, columbine… I'm not heartless, I just think that people are fucked up and shit happens. It’s the reactions of Americans that needs to be changed.

Oh yea. FOR FUTURE KNOWLEDGE. DON’T BET ME TO WRITE OR SAY ANYTHING WHEN I AM DRUNK, BECAUSE I WILL DO IT. I still won the bet, ha ha.

Well… it is time to eat and study for a little bit…