I’m still looking for a job. I have an interview with Yankee Candle tomorrow at 3:00. It is for an assistant manager position. I really hope I get something soon. I had an interview last week for a helper job. If I could get that and then another part time job, I would be set. I just hope that if I do get the helper job and the Yankee Candle job, they would both work around the schedule. But I guess I shouldn’t even think about that until I know for sure. I just want something and now.

I haven’t been feeling all that well lately. My stomach is icky like usual, but I’m not able to eat as much as I could before. I think it is partly because I am scared of the food in my fridge. But my fridge is working correctly now. I’m seeing it on all the time now pretty much. It still needs to be replaced, but it is fine for the time being.

Well I just got a call from the helper job… he said the job isn’t available until September. But I’m going to call him back to let him know I am interested still, and when the time comes let me know to see if I’m still available. But it makes me happy that he did call me back and remembered information about me and stuff. Well I know that I am being considered for the job… even though it might be a ways away still.

I opened up a bank account at Bank of America yesterday. The guy said I was pre approved for a credit card… it was for $7,500. He said that since I have good credit I got approved for a lot. He then added, that $7,500 is the highest anyone can get pre-approved for based on credit. That makes me feel good. He said also in a few years when I think about getting a house, I should have no problem getting a loan. That made me feel really good.

I haven’t been very happy lately either. I really miss Suji so much. Talking to her is one of the best highlights of my day.

I got her present yesterday, well kinda. It isn’t what I totally wanted, but I realize that the perfect one will never show up. But then again, it isn’t the big part of the gift…

I walked downtown a few days ago… I think Sunday… I got my phone plan changed to free Sprint to Sprint calling. It will start my next billing cycle, which I think is August 7th. Then I will be able to talk to Suji during the day. I would call her now, but she is in class. I just want to tell her about the job interview. It is a big deal for me. It sounded like the guy really wants me.

I just want to cry right now. I have felt like crying for the past couple weeks, but I just can’t do it. I haven’t been really able to cry when I’m sad. I just want to release all my unhappy feelings and just start to be happy. I don’t know what to do. I’m trying to go for walks, which makes me a little hungry which makes me eat which makes me feel better. But if I don’t go for a walk, then I don’t eat as much, and I get scared I’m not eating enough. I need to eat more fruit and veggies since I’m not eating the correct amount. If I’m not going to eat a lot, I just better eat well. Maybe that will help me out too. Also I need to start sleeping better and go to bed earlier. This going to bed at 12-1 isn’t working well. I need to go to bed at 10 and get up at 8ish. When school starts I need to get up at 7… I need to get my room 100% cleaned, so I can have room to do my yoga. I have two videos, but I don’t use them. That would get my energy flowing.

I need to go and buy a new cup. A new coffee cup with a lid. And a tea pot. I want some tea, I have lots of tea, but I never drink it. Tea makes me feel better too. Tea and Saltine Crackers. And microwave the crackers. Just how Andrew and I would make them.

I love the song “Passenger” by the Deftones, it is a good fucking song man, I mean shit it is fucking awesome, damn it it’s good. Yea, I really like it. I don’t know why it is so good, I just sounds good.

I’ve been playing a lot of UO lately. I am really into it again. I’ve been trying to play Dragon Warrior 4, but there is a limit to how many non-paying users can play at a time, and I haven’t been able to play much lately. I guess I will have to wait until the other people beat the game, or see if I can sneak in and play. I’m 70% done I think. I’m almost done with Friend’s Season 3. I guess I’m at about the rate of one season every week and a half. I usually watch 3-4 episodes, which is like half a disc. Then some days I don’t watch any. But after those other 6 seasons are done, I need to find something else to watch. I’m going to try and download some shows. I got Family Guy’s new season. But I have like 3 shows left… I really want Frasier, Law and Order SVU, Drew Carey. I’m still trying to get the X-files… but I can’t wait 30 weeks for it… if anyone knows of sites where I can get these faster, let me know…

So I’m not 100% happy living here… I really am going to consider finding a new place towards the end of my lease here. But that would be hard moving my book shelves and stuff. But I can rent a truck for that this time around… none of that bullshit not being able to rent one… But we’ll see how this fridge deal goes through, and all that other stuff.

I have to take it one day at a time… Just like I tell Suji… well…