Hello all. I am feeling better today than I have been lately. I am still very nervous about school. I start a week from today. I’m nervous because I just want to make sure I do well. I want to get my masters and then get a good job as a psychotherapist. I am still not sure if I want to go for the PsyD. or not right now. I think I just want the masters then move somewhere else for the PsyD. I think Portalnd area would be nice since I could apply to Pacific University again. I didn’t get accepted there since I didn’t have the experience that most people have when they enter into the PsyD program. I had my orientation yesterday for my school. I was one the youngest people in the room. Most of the people were probably around 27 or so. There were even some people who have grandchildren. I have to get up and work hard I guess. I just have to stay focused.
I have gotten all but one of my books. I am just waiting for that one now. I won the auction off ebay for it a few days ago, but the paypal is taking a few days to actually get the funds sent over to the guy. I will have to check it again later to see if it went through today or not. It was supposed to be done today. I also won an auction for a supposed rainforest scented Yankee Candle. If you remember Rainforest is my favorite scent, followed closely by China Sea. I like Woodland Spring a lot too, which is discontinued.
I am working a lot some weeks and not a lot others… Last week for example I worked 5 days, this week I work 4, next week I work 5 or 6, the following week I work 3. I really just want to get on a set schedule and work 4 days a week. Having a set schedule will be helpful for budgeting my time between school, work, and what little personal time I have. Well I have a lot of personal time at the moment, but that will change suddenly next Thursday when I start to have reading assignments due.
So the place where I live isn’t any better, but it looks as if it will get better. Richard IS moving out and it will be probably towards the end of the month. Jane IS getting a job starting mid September, or early October. Jane WILL get a new fridge once her job starts. IF she doesn’t I will be taking action to get it done. I have the e-mail I sent her, and she sent me, so I have proof of the conversation. Jane got stuff to get rid of the mouse that might still be in the house… That little fucker ate all my crackers.
I am glad Richard is moving out. I just don’t like being around him. It will probably be more quiet when he leaves. Most of the time when I’m in the room, I don’t have music going. I don’t know why I don’t turn on music, I just think it is because I like everything quiet. Though at night when I have my room open for air circulation, I put my headphones on so Richard can’t talk to me, or if he doesn’t I just don’t respond. Lately he has been being a baby about moving… like saying “this dryer sucks, I’m glad I’m moving”… just stuff like that. He’s moving back in with his mom… He should be saying “Why do I act like such an asshole, now I have to go live with my mom.”
A few days ago my jaw hurt so bad from grinding. I couldn’t even eat. I was really really depressed. I made a tombstone pizza, and usually I eat most of it, but I only could eat 3 pieces. It hurt too much to chew the hard crust, and my stomach just didn’t want me to eat. I am feeling better today though. My jaw still hurts, but not as much. It should be better in a few days. I am wearing my grinding guard the past few days at night. I wasn’t usually wearing it since I wasn’t needing it.
SO it is my birthday in 5 days. I’m going to be 23. I have no plans. I am probably going to open a bottle of wine and drink it all by myself, and watch movies. I talked with that Kendra girl from CSU. I’m going to e-mail her to see if she wants to have coffee. I actually did see her the other day. I was driving to work, and I was at a stop light and she crossed the street. Well I’m 90% sure that was her. It would have been the right area.
So Suji got me my B-day present already. I got the first two Zits comic books, and Sling Blade on DVD. I was so happy. I love the Zits comics so much. I miss reading them in the news paper. I have been reading the first one only when I’m at work. I haven’t gotten a chance to watch Sling Blade yet. I have wanted this movie for such a long time. Maybe the will be one of the movies I watch on September 6th.
I have been watching Twin Peaks. I just finished Season one last night, and started season two. Season two is so far weirder than the first. But I think it will be awesome. I’m going to watch a few in a little bit. I just have to get my laundry finished. It is almost done… I checked to make sure I will have food for the weekend, and I do. I am going to put off calling the State Farm guy again… I just need to get renters insurance and see if it is still ok that I have Colorado insurance for my car. One reason I am putting it off is I just don’t feel like leaving the house. Not that it is a bad thing, I just don’t want to drive.
Well… I have a really big craving to play Kessen 3 for so reason. It has been a while since I have played. I haven’t finished Jade Empire yet… the last time I played the power went out. I don’t know how close I am to the end… I might just play that and finish the game, and then move onto something else.
For the record… My birthday is really really soon
Off the record… I haven’t gotten any cards or presents other than from Suji…
For the record… I’m still not that happy about being here
Off the record… I wish someone would come here!