Depressed and my job is lame

10:05 p.m., August 14, 2004

Right now I am...

FEELING: The current mood of centaurlord@yahoo.com at www.imood.com

EATING: nothing.

WEARING: Jeans and my ozzy shirt

HEARING: My loud ass computer fans

THINKING: I wish Suji would hurry and get here...

RIGHT NOW I AM:

Where do you want to go?

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A full week of not updating but can I saw? Monday-off, Tuesday-off, Wednesday-work, Thursday-off, Friday-off, Today-work

I spent my days off playing UO and just being the lazy self. I would read at work. I went to mikes house on Thursday night and we drank and played UO. Friday I started getting depressed� I mean really depressed. Today I still was, but started to get better. I actually had something good to eat which seemed to help a little.

I met this girl named Brandi online like on Monday or something. We talked on the phone a few times, and then we arranged to get together on Friday. We were going to go see a movie and what not. But she didn�t have time since it turned out to have a meeting. I didn�t know if it was a date or not. I wish it would have been a date, but I don�t know if I want to date. Brandi seems like a good person to be friends with. But what ever. Work, school, GRE and stuff = no time. + girls = failure at school and GRE.

On the topic of girls� I have been downloading a lot of porn this past week. Porn does not always = masturbation. In fact I think this past week I�ve done it twice, once was because it had been over a week and the second was due to factors that were beyond my control� you know being horny� but since I feel depressed my sex drive doesn�t want to kick in correctly. Either it is too much or too little.

So right now I am watching Silence of the Lambs. This movie is great. It totally deserves all the awards it won. I was going to watch �Monster� but I was watching Law and Order instead. I love that show. Then I flipped to a new channel and saw this movie.

There is this guy at my work who I really don�t like. I�m glad he�s leaving on Tuesday. He�s such an arrogant asshole for working at a gas station.

My boss wants to promote me to weekend paper work guy. He has to check to make sure that I could be able to do it even though I haven�t bee there 90 days. My job is so goddamn boring. All I do is read and my shift duties. I have customers, but they take like 20 seconds each.

Well, I�m going to finish watching this movie.

For the record� I�m kinda depressed

Off the record� It is more depressed that usual.

For the record� Silence of the Lambs is a great movie

Off the record� I can�t wait until I do something with psychology

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